Saturday, February 4, 2023

Flashes of a breakthrough

 Okay this is only in flashes not linear per say…Also I am not a hunter nor do I like the idea of hunting.  For separation when I am speaking of real life I will italicize & underline that part.  

All of the below took place from 5:53am-6:03am I know this from my fit bit because I had just gotten up to pee and went back to sleep.

It is dark like night time, I am looking around me and I am in a group of people in a rather large circle, but in the edge of the group, no one in this group looked like anyone I know in real life and from what I remember I wasn’t particularly connected to anyone in the group like by friends or mates. I know that I am a man, the group is talking about the animal we are hunting tho when they say the name of it it’s like my hearing stops and I don’t hear the name. I know in my brain the animal but I don’t remember the name I know it’s in the hoofed family like an Elk or Deer but not as big as a moose, if you could combine all 3 that would be close. The area around us is deep snow but when we start our trek for the animal we walk in the snow with no effort, we are in a high elevation but not on the side of a mountain but there are patches of big tall pine and other evergreen trees around us, as well as clearings with no trees or brush visible, and I notice that the group didn’t stay together everyone went the way they thought was best to get the game we are after, I do not like to hunt but I help the group because it is needed. I and another man are walking together there is an understanding that while we are both skilled hunters I am to take the lead as far as where we walk etc. He and I don’t really talk like the others are because we know that just by walking we make to much noise, the rest of the group tho we can’t see them we can hear them & feel them. I noticed that there are all these paths in the snow like you would see in a cross country skiing place about the width of  3 or 4 people and groomed it resembles a big city side walk or a one car lane road . I stop to survey the area we are in and I said to the man with me said but with out talking or gesturing that we needed to get off these paths our game doesn’t follow them and neither should we, also we needed to get away from the rest of the group they are to noisy and their energy is intrusive. He agreed and we set off to a patch of trees we saw with no paths leading to or from them.  Then as we are walking we round this corner we’re we couldn’t see around it and I almost step on the hind part of what looks to me to be a yearling moose that has been killed. I reach up to turn on my head lamp like the ones we have a head band with a small flashlight but when I do instead of the light I am expecting mine is so dim it is like it is not even on. I ask the man with me to turn his on he dose and starts saying in a whisper to him it looks like a goat (to explain these “goats” are big like a Ram and all white like a Ram but their heads and body shape are like our domestic goats but with kind spindly legs like an Elk or a Moose). As we are looking over the body it appears to me that it is a trophy kill (we have a different term but like the name of the animal that escapes me now) because the animal still has everything except from mid neck up to the nose all of that fur and skin have been peeled off and all you can see is the muscles & tendon’s that are under the skin and what ever antlers and the eyes are also gone. There is no blood anywhere, I have no idea how they killed this animal I see no gun shot wounds, or knife wounds. I can also see why he says it looks like a goat to him because it is all white fur like the snow. As we stand there I am aware to look behind us and around a snow mound I see what looks like a female “goat”with 2 little ones behind her I can feel her fear I “tell” her we are not here for her or her young and we would never do what was done here we only take what is needed and that I was sorry if this was her mate. That calms her a little but she can also sense the group we are with so she remains where she is and is on alert but doesn’t run. The man I am with and I decide it is best to keep moving to get away from the group, we don’t take the meat because the kill was to long ago and the meat would not be good for us to eat or share.  The we have set up our tents and built a fire we are in a clearing like a meadow, about 20’ next to the camp is a lazily running small river but by looking at its banks you can see that in the spring it runs high and fast and about 20 yards from us is the face of a flat topped mountain. I am in the tent and I am some how ME Eve, and I am thinking how I find it strange that we are in snow but are not cold or tired from walking and the mountain face I am looking at has now snow just dirt and no trees. I hear Scotty and another man’s voice, I don’t recognize but am aware we are in a group together so I am not afraid, outside the tent and the campfire popping and cracking.  They are talking in whispers and I know we are to be quiet so I stay where I am looking at the mountain side and listen to them talk, they are talking about <name of the game we are hunting> and the other man says he is wondering if we are maybe in some kind of simulation, Scotty softly chuckles, I start to notice that the part of the mountain I have been looking at starts to move like vein with a heart beat, like how veins do on the back of peoples hands who are elderly & really skinny I watch and think how odd that is because there is no sound other than the campfire, the man & Scotty.  I say to Scotty “do you see that?” Scotty reply’s “yep” and as he says that the movement/ heart beat grows faster in the mountain vein and just then the vein part explodes out toward us with a huge rush of water and reveals an extremely fast moving white water “new” mountain side stream/river not like a waterfall but a stream/river but that eruption has also now reached our little river near the camp and it is running so high and fast I notice that the rocks that I used to see in the river are now creating a mound of fast moving water in almost a reverse wave, I am apprehensive and I look to Scotty and “ I say should we leave, that water is rising fast.” Scotty calmly replied “nope it’s fine, we are fine.” and he and the other man continue whisper talking. I turn back to the water with a calm knowing that I am fine and think how odd there is no sound of all this rushing water.  Then I am the same male I was before the campfire & river event and the other male, same from the beginning, but different from the campfire river event, we are walking again in search of <animal name> we come up to a part of the group that like us split from the bulk of us for some quiet and relief, they speak to me like the male I have been with, with out words or gestures I would say telepathic but it’s more than that the only I can think of is a combination of KNOWING & telepathic, less of a “thought” of telepathic more of just knowing/feeling, they say they have seen <animal name> and that they were following it and that we should combine for a better advantage, I agree. As we are speaking I feel I need to look behind me but up on the rock/hill side.  When I do I see a HUGE wolf/elk-ish animal it is not hunting us but it notices us and leaps down to the ground we are on it lands about 10 yards from us as it lands I see it is not whole, it is “injured” on part of its face, it is gone not like blown away or ripped away more like the program didn’t finish loading to build up the rest of it, a frame work is there but easy to see, and I feel that I need to help it but I “say” I don’t want to kill you, it “says” should I attack would that be easier for you? I “say” no I raise my arm toward the wolf/elk, my arm has a shotgun all of the sudden I say “sorry” and I try to pull the trigger I have the same hesitation and the same apprehensiveness sometimes when I am checking my blood sugar I know the pain of the poke lasts for only a second or so it some mornings it takes me forever to push the button to get the poke. I sigh relax my shoulders and “say” I please forgive me I am sorry; and then I turn my head away from the wolf/elk I pull the trigger and turn back to see the bullet travel and I notice that the animal is also watching the bullet come to him and just before it touches his fur he looks at me and I feel/hear relief/thank you I’ve been waiting so long, and then as the bullet enters the fur at the front of its chest the animal turns into/explodes into leaves & glistening bits of light like glitter in the air.  

Then I woke up and was laying there thinking okay so 90% of the time I don’t remember my dreams, but that was odd. As I laid there I looked at the clock to see if it was worth getting up or if I should just wait because we are getting up early to go grocery shopping I looked at the clock 6:03am,ugh, and I hear a rooster crow it’s not our neighbors rooster but sounds like the one I have nicknamed Old Man, this past week I have been trying to decide if a “wild” or a dropped off rooster has taken up roost in our trees because he heard Little Man (the name I gave our neighbors roster).  I would say a dropped off rooster but his crow sounds like he is an old old bird so I hate to think who ever owned him dropped him off, but any way he made our neighbors rooster crow I smile thinking ‘hey hey Little Man you are sounding like an actual rooster instead of the squeaky voice breaking crows you had in the summer congratulations good morning Little Man, good morning Old Man.’

Then I hear my wolves okay not MINE but they are in the woods next to our home so I call them mine and I have missed hearing them for about a year or so and my heart jumps and I am so happy and my smile grows, as they howl sounds like 4 or 5 of them.  Then I hear the old rooster again as if to say ‘hey did you hear that young feller?’ and our neighbors rooster crows back and then all of outside goes back to the quiet calm of the morning and inside Koa realizes I’m awake and starts the Kitty Bongos…..about 1/2 hr later Scotty’s alarm goes off. Hello Sunday.

Monday, February 1, 2021

You ever have a dream that you wake up from and your heart wants more?

Hi....it’s me....I know it’s been forever but here we go again.....Eve’s crazy dream talk.....hhaaahaaahaaa

Normally I don’t remember my dreams as I’ve said before, but sometimes when I do and they are good ones then I often wish I could go back into the dream like others say they can, but alas for me when I am awoken from a dream then it is done......so let’s begin shall we?????


This dream I can’t even give any lead up to it because the first thing I remember is....

For some reason I am on a beach in Italy it is near a resort type area and I’m discussing with a local Forman what I am building and a part of that for some reason is a place to house dogs, the local I am working with speaks English and is showing me a pit in the sand with a dog at the bottom of the pit with a bowl for food and water seeps in from the surf just a little, he is trying to explain this is what he thought I was looking for and that the small amount of water from the surf will be the water the dogs drink, this makes me very sad and I tell him no we are not trying to kill the dogs and I requested he get the dog out immediately before the tide comes in and it drowns. He looks up at the workers snaps his fingers points to them and the puppy/dog and starts hollering at them in Italian I do not speak Italian so I leave him to the crew. I walk out into the surf to try to clear my head and try to ground/calm myself. I stand in about mid-shin deep beautiful clear teal blue water watching the horizon and am thinking of a person that I have had a crush on for over 15 years in real life and apparently in this dream, and then tell myself to just forget him because I am here with ____ (as I type this I can not remember his name so I will call him Chip and no in real life I do not know this person at present) and even tho he is WAY older than me (and older than my crush), my crush (we will call him Dale as some of Dale’s real life plays into this) is married, and I should just be happy my crush Dale and I are friends PERIOD I have an amazing life and I should just be happy and stop wishing for something that’s never gonna happen. Besides the grass may seem greener on the other side but that is usually not the case once you get on the other side of the door and the vail of mystery is lifted. Everyone has faults and while the rose colored glasses I view Dale in real life with may hide some things, there are some flaws that I see clearly and would not be able to handle them that much I do know.

{Looking back on the dream I don’t think my older OLDER gentleman and I are a lovey-doves married couple it felt more like a friendship that turned into an arrangement of marriage that worked best for both of us.}

As this conversation goes on in my head and as I flip flop between this dream life and my REAL LIFE feelings and thoughts, I try to focus on the waves the sun and the air it all feels so beautiful, so relaxing, so.....perfect, and yet I feel like someone is watching me. I think to myself ‘oh don’t be a fool you are nothing special’ and I try to brush it off, but it doesn’t go away so I resolve myself to just turn around and scan the resort beach as I walk back to the building. Yet when I turn around it took absolutely no time to see WHY I felt I was being watched, tho the beach is busy there are 2 things that stand out crystal clear to me and everything else is a blur.  There on the beach kind of close to the waters edge is my older gentleman Chip I can see on his face he is happily admiring me like he does often, it makes me blush and flutter a bit. He is a tall just over 6’ handsome man, he is wearing perfect tailored white silk pants with a deep cobalt blue silk shirt that is not quite buttoned all the way as it flutters in the breeze it is showing a bit of his beautiful chest, he his a very strikingly handsome man, but my gaze zooms right past Chip and lands on Dale it makes me gasp, for there he his standing just behind Chip up on the embankment, he is wearing what seems like the same beautiful white silk perfectly tailored pants but no shirt, and he has a look on his face just like Chip only Dale’s look is a bit more lustful, I swoon and almost fall, thankfully to the on looker it just looks like I tripped a little, both Chip’s & Dale’s looks change to one of worry until they see I am fine then a kind of smerk-smile comes over them. I rase my hand over my head and wave to them, tho I am sure Chip doesn’t know Dale is just behind him. Honestly it’s odd the line they are in, like I am the sun and they are 2 planets who have just lined up / . I expected Chip to wave back as he does but in real life Dale doesn’t often show any emotion to me other than the friendly but awkward hug, even when we are in a group setting he is usually ... and I am quoting others how say this to me often, “he acts like a cold friend more like an acquaintance, or that he doesn’t even want you here”  yet in my dreams it is hard to explain....in here the soul energy feeling I get is just like it is in real life, like he is REALLY next to me but in here in my dreams there are no restrictions and he often shows what I believe to be his true feelings, but Dale did wave & smile, again I swoon and my heart feels like it will burst, only this time I don’t trip as I head back to the building I just try to walk as though I am not walking on air and I notice puppy is running up to me so I reach down to welcome him......


Then the next part of the dream I remember is....

Night has come actually more like midnight/early am, the time when most people are sleeping, I am walking alone on the beach at the resort, taking stick of the days events and again trying to clear my head. Alone except for the sweet puppy from earlier, we walk along and I tell him about my project plans I apologize the silly man put him in the beach pit, really I am just trying to get Dale out of my head and I am thankful that there are no people around. Puppy and I come upon a part of the resort it looks like a grand ball room that is in the process of being set up for a piano performance and a tune pops in my head, not one I have heard before or even know now as I write this, I could not even humm any of it now, the seats are mostly off to the side of the room with a kind of maze trail thru them while the center is mostly empty.  I look down at puppy who sweetly is sitting next to me looking up at me waging his tale and I say ‘ well no one is here I am sure no one would mind... would you care to dance sir?’  and we walk in to the room and I begin to humm/sing to the tune in my head and eventually break into a kind of twirling skipping carefree dance with puppy. I am having a blast being lost in the tune and puppy’s dance as we skip & twirl and weave in and out of the chairs and down the main part of the ball room, when I hear the most beautiful laughter it sounds like angels its beauty makes my heart leap and stops me in my tracks, I look up and it is Andrea Bocelli he has a few people around him one has just explained to him what I was doing. I am not sure how long we were dancing nor how long they were watching us.  Andrea with a huge smile on his face he says something to me in Italian and because I don’t understand him I just stand there like a fool motionless, his smile diminished a bit as he waits and he catches on and says “English signora?” I nod and eek out a mousy reply “yes sir”  and he laughs and as he walks toward me he says to not call him sir and he hoped that he could join puppy and I in our dance because from what he heard from my humming and giggles it sounds fun. I know he is blind but I curtsy and say I would be honored he holds out his hand and I take it he begins to hum/sing as I was the tune in my head, I join in and off we go. We skip, spin & twirl thru the rest of the open space of the ball room and with out a word I lead him as we skip thru the chair maze with just using my hand as to which direction he is to follow a small angle to the left we go left etc, we return back to the center of the ball room I hug him tight and whisper in his ear “thank you so very much” and kiss him on the check then I pull away and curtsy again and say for the rest of the room to hear “ thank you sir it has been an honor and a blessing.” They all applaud and I blush as he says he hopes I make it to his playing tonight and asked if I would stay as they rehearse. I tell him that I am so very thankful for his kind invitation to stay but I have to get back to my room, and that I will be sure to catch his performance that evening. I look down at puppy and turn to head for the door, as puppy and I head into the hallway to get to my room I see Dale again, my heart flutters and I gasp again and just as he looks at me smiling he starts to walk towards me I feel my self  wanting to run to him..... I wake up.


These few scenes have stuck with me for DAYS now and just before posting this, Dale texted me in real life saying he had a secret to share, and as he shared it with me while I am elated for this new project for him & his wife, it is tempered my my still writhing feelings of my recent dream, but alas all my Pisces life I seem to be on fin in the real world and one fin in the dream realm.

Who knows maybe the dream was because in real life Dale was thinking of me and wanting to share this new adventure he is about to embark on????

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Now I lay me down to sleep....

Through much discussion with myself I have decided that I need to get this out and well it is to long for FB & there are too many eyes that just don’t need to see this; and well a written diary is nowadays almost a ghost plus I am barley patient enough to get my thoughts typed out and to wait for my crappy handwriting to put it to paper is just well nerve-racking! So here it goes.

I find it frustrating that my premonition dreams are almost like riddles! I am not saying that I don’t want them anymore, I sure don’t want to go down that path again! What I am saying is that I wish they could be less interpretive & more straight forward. I guess what I need to do is make a journal of them and maybe that would help decipher the messages.

For instance I have one that sticks in my memory which if you knew me these days my memory is a foggy place and lucky to find itself some times. Any how the one that sticks in my memory is I was with my Gram who at the time was alive and we were sitting talking then all the sudden everything around her turned grey and swirling and she was getting sucked in to this swirling grey and being taken away from me. We tried to hold on to each other’s arms then hands then fingers, just like in the movies when someone is falling and the other person is just not strong enough to hold them…that kind of agonizing slipping when you know the fate of the other person is latterly in your hands! When I woke up from it & calmed down a bit I called my Gram it was 3am but since I was a child I remember her saying “you call me honey anytime day or night about anything.” and  I always knew she meant every word…so this time I was pulling the anytime anything card! Now premonitions was something she never really talked about unless there was NO ONE else around and NO WAY anyone could just happen into the conversation same with seeing things/people that other people don’t see. That night/am I think she heard in my voice I was still upset so she talked with me about it and told me that she was fine and that each person’s way of having them differs. She assured me she was fine and would be mindful of herself in the coming days as most premonitions are just that a forewarning and can be changed. Turned out that it was not my Gram but my husband’s Grandmother Billie that the premonition was about. She had been in & out of the hospital for years so much so that the family was not concerned and would go visit her off & on until she came back home. It happened to be that I was staying with my in-laws for a bit while my husband was getting our home ready in the duty station we were at, that is how most of our moves went while he was active duty in the US Navy. While staying with the in-laws I have to admit the first few visits to the hospital I was concerned because I have #1 never had a family member in & out of a hospital like that #2 I just assumed that if they are in the hospital you stay with them until they are ready to go home or like in the movies or TV shows a nurse or doctor convinces you that you need rest & you should go home and come back tomorrow. So it took a few visits for me to get as comfortable as the rest of the family with her hospital stay. Then one night {weeks after my premonition dream, and after talking with my Gram it was out of my thoughts was NOT on my brain AT ALL} after dinner the in-laws and I were sitting around watching TV we had been to see Billie that afternoon and told her we would be back tomorrow so there was no visit planned. All the sudden my husband’s mother Shirley says we should go see Billie, her husband reminder her that we had been just a few hours ago and we would be going in the next day and that her mother needed some rest however if she wanted to go he was fine with it but would not be going. She tried to sit with it for a bit longer but then decided she wanted to just pop in for a quick bit then would be back home a ½ hour at the most. I wasn't gonna go either but just felt I should….lingering feelings of my previous feelings about a person in a hospital or something more? To this day I am not sure. When we got there Billie was sleeping it had been a busy day when we were there earlier that day so we assumed she would be tired. She kept waking up to visit with us and watch Wheel of Fortune {it was their thing I've never been a fan} so I sat at the foot of the bed and admired the Mother Daughter combo that was in front of me. We would have small meaningless easy to drop conversations then she would fall asleep, then Shirley and I would discuss silly things like what should be for lunch tomorrow what was on the agenda trivial things really. Then Shirley decided we should go so Billie could get some better sleep …. well as good as you can in a hospital. So she said her good bye for the night to her mom and moved so I could also wish her a good rest and that we would be by tomorrow. When I said ‘ok Billie you have a good night sleep and we will be back tomorrow’ and leaned to kiss her forehead she grabbed my arm and said ‘I wish you wouldn't go’ I took her hand and put it in mine and told her she needed to get her rest so we could take her home but again said we would be back tomorrow. She looked from me to Shirley and back and said ‘no please you stay while I sleep just for a bit longer’ so there we sat Shirley on one side of her bed & me on the other side Billie was still holding my hand. I thought she would let it go but every time I felt her ease up her grip I would try to slide my hand away so that when we left it wouldn't wake her but just as her grip eased and the minimum I would try to move my hand she would grip me harder & wake up a bit so I stopped trying to move. After a few minutes Shirley wanted to go get some water for us to drink. When she left Billie woke a little and looked around the way I was sitting she was more at my side than face to face so I turned to her smiled as if to say see still here…though her grip on my hand would be enough to tell a person that. She looked at me smiled a smile I had not seen in her face & eyes in years it was a smile she had when she was having a good health day & was happy…the kind of smile that people talk about a twinkle in your eye kinda smile. Then she looked like she was looking just behind me; I knew there was a window but the curtains were drawn and it was night so I knew there was “nothing” behind me. I lightly patted her hand and rubbed her arm like I had done before then she looked back at me and it was like she was happy & relieved all at the same time then she closed her eyes and I thought ok she’s back to sleep-ish. I noticed that her hand was getting cold and frankly so was mine partly from the vise grip she had on my hand and partly because well it is a hospital and they are not warm! I thought to myself ‘this woman is not some frail thing she is going nowhere with the strength of her grip she’ll probably be ready to go home tomorrow or at least in a few days.’ Then I started to find a part of the blanket I could wrap our hands in because if I was getting cold & shivering by our hand holding she must be also. I had just got some of the blanket up and was wrapping our hands as careful as I could so she didn't wake up when Shirley came back in. She saw that Billie looked “not right” so she said she was gonna go get a nurse or the doctor as no one had been in to check on her in a while. The nurse and Shirley came back & decided that Billie should go for an oxygen treatment but that was down the hall. The nurse disconnected her from all the monitoring stuff that she was connected to I tried to move but the nurse noticed that Billy was holding my hand so she said that until it was time to move her from the room I could just stay there and she would work around me. As I was standing there I happened to look down at Billie and now that the lights where different I could see what Shirley was talking about Billie was always pale looking but she was more ashen grey looking and her normally pink/red small lips where a dark not normal looking purple color and I noticed what no one else noticed that her hand felt more cold as time went on. Then they were ready to move her I tried to move my hand but I could not and Billie was not waking up so one of the nurses and I pried my hand out of Billie’s hand I looked to see if she woke up but she didn't…all the busyness of being disconnected from the monitor stuff and the bed moving around & now being pried apart none of that woke her. It was then that they got to the hall when the Dr saw Billie they rushed her down to the ER and I stayed with Shirley in the waiting room until family arrived but then I went outside I had to get away part of me felt like it was a close family thing and I was just a girl who married in {though anyone in that family would tell me I am a fool to ever think that} and part of me had to get away from people because it was all just too much! So I went outside and stood. I was away s away from the entrance and could see the whole building the way it was situated and because it was night I could see everyone in the waiting room our family as well as others. I was out there alone talking to what I believe in. I remember bits & pieces from there out because it was a lot of hollering and tears and frustration. I remember watching them in the waiting room wishing and saying that it wasn't right that my husband was so far away from his family that for him I wanted him here so he could be in there with them. I remember for a few seconds a calm came over me and I hushed about him not being there and my attention was drawn to the ER door windows … almost like my head was pointed to that direction & told to look. You could tell that there were ‘sections’ in there separated by curtains, I saw the curtains around this one bed/section just bellowing with movement from inside it and I thought ‘Oh my!’ and instantly said a prayer that whomever was being worked on I prayed that they would be ok and that the dr’s & nurses would be able to help the person be ok. I couldn't take my eyes off those windows then suddenly like a blink of an eye the curtain opened and I saw Billie for a split second then the Dr jumped up on the bed and was doing CPR then a nurse who opened the curtain came running back to the Dr & closed the curtain again. I was so scared, hurt & angry. All at once that premonition came back in my mind….the grey, the loosing grip and GRAM….then it hit me Gram=Billie, Loosing Grip=Vise grip of her hand on me & Grey=Billie was very grey I've never seen that color on a person. I feel into the lamp post I had been standing behind and I started balling and screaming & cursing having a “gift” that is so confusing that I can’t use it to HELP anyone. I said a lot of things out there alone that night to what I believe in and made a request that to this day I regret and if I had the ability to I would go back and take it back. I have since tried to make my peace with both what happened and what I said and requested. It’s a work in progress.

I have had other premonitions too but the ones that are as hard hitting as that one are the ones that seem to stick with me until either I get them figured out or the event comes to pass. The premonitions are not often but the other night I had one like one above in that I woke up crying well actually I woke up my husband because I was screaming & crying. When he woke me it took me hours to settle down and even then I didn't really settle but as our lives do our day trudged on…his alarm went off and he had to get up to get ready for work…and THAT is the one that started this whole post. It has been on my mind since & it has been a few weeks now. Sadly my subconscious is still trying to work it out because parts have become a theme in my dreams making me lose sleep or have fitful nights of rest. My active mind/me I have thought on it a bit here & there and have decided parts of it are figured out and parts of it I have no clue…like HOW could my Mom who IS living and my Gram who is NOT living both be alive and in the kitchen discussing what to do for me while I am on my hands & knees inconsolably balling in the garage about how I am going to go on living without my soul mate my husband…and HOW is it that he would be working in an orchard when **I will not speak of it** happens when we do not live near, we know no one with, nor does he now work in an orchard. In the past I have had only 2 other premonitions where he **I will not speak of it** in them but those have always come to be that we have a fight, and when that happens it feels like a piece of me dies because I feel our connection become disconnected and I HATE that feeling. So I have decided that it must be that, if we continue on our path there will be a fight at some point tho I can’t fit in the Mom & Gram part together and I think that is the part my brain is still working on since I have “explained” the other part to myself. I do however wish my brain would give it a rest tho because I am tired of the theme in my “normal” dreams and also tired of the non-restful sleep I've been getting. So I am hoping that by getting this down/out my brain & myself will let it go too!

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Hoping to win a book

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So found out thru the Faction Quiz I might be Divergent 0.O now what???
         Do I choose Amity, Candor or Dauntless ??
Well while reading the first book I LOVED the feeling I got reading about Tris's Dauntless ways I am not sure I could live that way ..... so I choose  ......
I choose.....
          I   
                      choose






AMITY   Yup out with nature easy going but not a rug to be walked on Amity :)

Monday, May 27, 2013

Twinzes ;)


            Some odd things go thru ones head when you're taking a long super warm/hot shower to try to warm up because you are cold, so very cold cold to the marrow in your bones COLD!

            I was thinking back on today with great thanks that Scotty & I got to spend the day together doing a hole lotta nothing J  ... and I was remembering our brunch at Olive Garden. I'm not sure when it happened but the 'OG Twins' as I called them have graduated from hostess to servers and I NOW know their names NOT that it would help me much if they took off their name tags & said 'ok who am I?' any how the point to this is it got me to thinking and I mentioned to Scotty "I wonder why parents of twins do that, name their children the same first letter name." I kinda laughed to myself that we both had the same name in our head when I posed the question 'what if my mom had twins what would my twin be named if I am NaPua my twin would be … '

            My thoughts are if they are identical twins or not there should be a rule they can not have the same first letter name! I know 4 sets of twins and 3 of the sets share a first letter name thing like the 'OG Twins' they are Veronica & Vanessa  btw … but since I don't have kids let alone twins I guess I really have no right in saying anything J and who knows maybe it is an unspoken rule that you only know about if you are lucky enough to have twins that yes actually they MUST have a same first letter name if they are identical or not. Unless you are a rule breaker like my friend who is a twin & they have different first letter names ;) way to go mama you rebel <3.

 
To anyone reading this that has twins that have the same first letter name…. PLEASE UNDERSTAND I MEAN NO DISRESPECT AT ALL…just an outsider looking in & confusingly observing J

p.s. this pic is of one of my FAV Friend Sets they humored me for a friends event in Port Gamble WA last year.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Gone Girl book read for book club

53% in to the book NOW I get what you all were saying YUP NOW I can't put it down! WOW DID SO NOT SEE THAT COMMING!!! Frick am I glad I didn't just stop reading it like wanted to so many times!!!
It's funny people I talk to say if you don't like it or if its not your style why are you still reading it? Then some get a giggle at my answer others look like a deer caught in head lights.  My answer ... I feel I owe it to the author who's work I'm reading all their hard long hours of writing, I owe it to the proof readers, the editors, the printers, the promoters of the author/book, they all in their way made it so I could be reading this book I owe it to all their hard work to finish the book like it or not. Plus there is only 1 book in my life I did not finish because I couldn't take reading one more page...and I don't want to add to that list!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Enie mene mineie mo catch a tiger by the toe...

A thought crossed my mind this am had me pondering for a while so I'll share.... K so for those who don't know-know me I'm not a girly girl I don't wear makeup I HATE shopping of any kind unless it's for friends I used to wear perfumed lotions but then I cut myself off & allowed myself 2 bottles of perfume a season so 1 or 2 scents for Spring & Summer. Then a different 2 for Fall & Winter. This morning what prompted this post is I was at a loss what scent to use this am & realized I have 6 0.0 yes 6 bottles to choose from! How did that happen???
Ok there's you glimpse into my mind for the day....now go out & have a blessed day <3 namaste <3